One day, I woke up and thought to myself:
“I’ve been in Cambodia over one month; I should get out and start doing something. Enough with this whole learning phase. I’ve had about 10 Khmer conversations, read some books on sex trafficking, and visited organizations. Yes, I know what needs to be done. Now, I’ll go do it.”
Then, my Lord patiently sighed and said, “Dear Child, you have just begun learning.”
Sitting down at the feet of Jesus faithfully every day can be hard. Yes, it’s life-giving and beautiful. Unarguably the best decision anyone can make.
Yet, there are temptations everywhere to get up and run away.
The billion dollar sex industry thriving, thousands of people being submitted to eternal lives of hell, and people starving all in my neighborhood easily pull at me to come running out, in my flesh, to do something.
Easily, I have succumbed to thinking that doing more is a good answer.
If only we opened more orphanages & feeding programs, created more
business as missions, educated society more effectively.
IF ONLY WE CREATED MORE PROGRAMS.
Then, the problems would be solved.
If only I was doing more.
That is the mantra I’ve grown up with.
DO more.
That mentality is [deathly] wrong.
The LORD God is King.
Jesus is HIS name.
KING of ALL Kings.
He is the one that ends injustice,
Sets in motion plans for kingdoms and ethnic groups to praise Him,
Parts the Red Sea,
& uses people like Moses, a man who was not eloquent in
speech yet became the Nation of God's spokesperson.
HIS heart is the one we must cry out to day and night,
for He is the only One needed.
- HIS justice demolishing the wicked injustices of our generation.
- HIS jealousy destroying the love of money.
- His grace restoring our societies “unredeemable” people.
- His mercy pouring out peace into the most violent of men.
Today, I repent of running away from Jesus’ feet to feebly attempt some human works. As I came close enough to my normal matted floor earlier today I heard His voice…
“Heather, look at your days of doing. What have you accomplished so far? You plan to go here and there with your own agenda of looking good. Listen to me, remember my word to you? I have called you here to pray, fast,and dancefor justice. You can keep on trying to do, but your plans will be thwarted until your plan is to sit with me and listen.”
So here I sit, humbled.
Asking the Lord,
“How do I pray change, dance against injustice, and fast for captives’ freedom? Teach me, Lord, I am sitting here, ready.”
