What is the purpose of spilling out words on a canvas for you? Why do I share what my struggles are, where my heart lays?
I have become wordless recently, as you may have noticed, realizing that you have the ability to misconstrue my words however you deem correct. Not trusting you to read them, nor I to write, as Christ would.
Yet, after a short leave of absence, I am here again, painfully aware at how easily you can judge my words:
False, if they convict you too deeply.
Truth, because of my occupations title, when they are not.
But, because my mouth can't keep quiet and my fingers are not capable of staying still… I'm here again to share and allow criticism as the Lord justifies.
This is where my heart has been
The Power of Praying, Singing, Rejoicing, and Dwelling on Scripture
This past month I’ve been really blessed by online lectures from IHOP, specifically Mike Bickles series on the Song of Songs. The Song is a place the Lord has been drawing me to for the past 6 months. I would go to it, read it, study a little bit, become overwhelmed and put it down. Only to pick it up again, and again, and again… The musical side of me that clings onto lyrics could not stop being intrigued by the best song ever written.
Yes, the symbolism can be confusing.
Yes, you can find insanely wacked-out theological beliefs on The Song.
Yet, the passion found there is incredible and worth fighting for understanding. Dwelling on it has been the best thing I’ve done since coming to Cambodia.
I’ve discovered that as I read The Song repeatedly, and speak it out loud, my heart is becoming softened to the Lord’s voice.
I’m coming alive in an entirely different way.
One that rejoices in walking in Truth, even difficult Truth, when before I was merely obeying out of knowledge that it was good to obey Truth more then death. I'll leave you with a little excerpt from the best song ever written.
The Song of All Songs
1 The Song of Songs, which is Solomon’s.
2 May he kiss me with the kisses of his mouth
For your love is better than wine
3 “Your oils have a pleasing fragrance,
Your name is like purified oil
Therefore the maidens love you.
4 “Draw me after you and let us run together!
My Reflection:
The Best Song, written by Solomon.
May He kiss me with the kisses of His mouth. For out of His Mouth pours forth Truth that awakens every dead particle of our beings. His Truth softens our hearts and brings us into right placement with Him.
May you kiss me with your Word, because Your love is better than wine. Not only wine, but every good thing you have given us! Family, Friendships, Children, Work, all of Your Creation!
Your oils have a pleasing fragrance, they burst forth! Your name is so beautifully perfumed that every maiden can't help loving you.
Draw me into your presence, o thank you for drawing me in! Let us run together, in full partnership, that we can spread your aroma together!
Let us run together, as a body, dwelling in all Truth and rejoicing in real, genuine life! Rejoicing in thankfulness and requesting to have this heart – one that desires full Truth, recognizes that Christ is better then any good thing, asking to come into full partnership.
If you want to check out the teaching series, you can search on iTunes Store for Yearn, Faint, Cry Song of Songs Discs 1-20. I believe they are produced by IHOP.
Keep singing.
Tulips belong to God and your Grandmother loves them. Do not be to hard on tulips. Soloman had a lot to sing about. He decided in his wisdom God provides the only worth while things. Our emails don’t seem to get through
but we are doing fine.
Lots of Love and Prayers for you
Grandpa and Grandma Mauk